Salam everyone,
RIght now i'd like to talk about the story of my life.. Ive been in love since i was at age of 12 years old, i knew her through an IRC(internet relay chat) which is super popular back in late 90s, it was a puppy love of course, and our relationship didn't last long, i still remember i used to "gayut" or in english, "talking tru phone for hours!" at the back of my father's office, it was a sweet moment,eventhough i never see her in the person nor seeing her picture makes me love her :D Of course cinta monyet lah katakan right? It was fun until one day she stopped email me/ and irc, it was many weeks, i try to call her through her cellphone but failed to reach her until one day i receive one sad email, she was involved in one horror accident with his 2 big sisters, i still remember her saying that her sisters were killed and she survived. At that moment, i was at Pantai Remis, it was where my father's branch clinic setup there. I remember walking through the city to cybercafe and walked back sadly..
And after that, dah lama sikit, kitaorg stop berhubung, im not sure why, it was 12 years back and im 24 now, oh btw her name was Hazira :)
So long my lost2, friend..
Ini kot sebenarnye hazira? :D (berangan lebeyh)
And present, while i was at Malacca doing my foundation in engineering at MMU, surfing around friendster, (that's right, friendster is popular before facebook) , ive met one sweet girl that took my heart, straight away i message her,and she replied, lol i was so happy at that time (although i just got dumped by my ex who's doing medic 2 months before). Im not sure why my naluri cannot stand my father's words(a No No couple while studying), we started to get close together and 23nd December 2005 became our first anniversary where i propose her tru phone :D It's only a few months after we get a chance to meet, i still remember,driving my father's MPV secretly went KL, memang darah muda berani betul, lepas ingat balik baru sedar, gila betul, dahlah after g KL, boleh jalan2 g Melaka lagi and back to Perak met his Opah :D Apparently we went into a serious relationship until NOW, we even plan to get married, it was years before, when i was 21 years old, i reach my abah to ask and he said "NO".. lol.. And recently, maybe my abah realized im 24 now , i asked again, and at first he reluctant coz im still not finish my studies yet,however,after my girl came down to my hometown, and they've meet each other, and tanya macam2, at last they're letting me go kahwin, with my parents money(eee tak malu).
and sekarang, after banyak perancangan, ada benda menghalang, oh yes, i forgot that my contract of PTPTN is finished (due to extend in MMU, budak2 mmu memang dah immune dgn extend), i have to reconsider of decision getting married this end of year, i try to get part time jobs, but all they want is person to work for week days which i can't, as i took 2 subjects that needs me to come for class monday till friday.. My girl pun rasa tak seronok nk kawin since fees at mmu pun banyak, so lepas fikir2 and bincang, we agreed to postponed it until i finished studies and renggang for a while which is hard for both of us sebab satu uni, satu course.. Renggang means to separate, tak jumpa macam selalu.. Sebenarnya rase sedih bila fikir, semua plan tak jadi, and im still stuck here at this stupid MMU yang tahu nak cekik darah students je for their sake of profits (not real education environment) n to those lecturers yang failkan aku, thanks weh jasa mu dikenang zzz.My fees alone for this sem, 2 months (RM3000, that's right). Im not sure where to korek this kind of money, and soon memang kena minta my abah again :( and siap sedia lah dimaki and of course! NO MARRIAGE..
Gambar lama gila, mase 2007 kut...
Talking about MMU, semua warga MMU tau MMU ni fees makin mahal, dari 700 satu subjek dulu,skrang dah almost 1k, 9++ utk subjek core. To those freshies yg nak masuk MMU, tak payahlah masuk, lagi2 engineering sebab dah lah mahal,lecturer igt kitaorg ni pelajar harvard ke set question super power, sampai many of friends yg dulunya engineering, tukar course,tukar uni, ramai yang mengalah. Maybe it's my fault jugak tak jadi supernerd, but i dont want to be geeks yg 24/7 with books,that's not me. Ada my friend lagi la, 4 kali ambil engine maths I asyik fail, cuma last sem ja baru lepas. Sedih2, currently im doing electronics majoring nanotechnology, lagi lah pressure, most of my friends yg dah graduate, kebanyakan not as tough as my course(padan muke kau sape suruh ambik nano?) , majoring electrical,computer, maybe senang lagi daripda nano kut,name pun nano kan.. zzz..
Policy sampah yg buat student angin.
Sorry lah melalut panjang2.. Actually my head is full of tangled wired that need to be straighten up, i feel really worried of what i will become and what my life will be, i feel sad to think that my abah needs to feed my other siblings, paying his many2 hutang here and there, and he's expecting me something but im actually something else, rasa berat sangat bila tahu plan tak menjadi, and beban datang, and we're alone thinking of this,no one else know except me,Nurul,and God.. C u guys in next posting..
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